Sunday, January 4, 2009

Have You Ever....

.... felt alone? Almost totally alone? Here in our Earthly life is what I mean. I'm really struggling right now. I have my husband and daughter down here, which is wonderful. But, other than them, I have nobody. I have nobody to talk to, nobody hang out with, nobody to have girl time with... it's driving me mad. It seems like every friend I've ever had has screwed me over in some way. I've only had like 2 really close friends in my whole life, and I moved away from both of them. I still keep in contact with one of them, but she lives where I'm originally from in Pennsylvania. Part of it is because my family has moved so much in my life that I've never really had the opportunity to make solid friendships, and keep the friendships I actually did make. The other part of it is that women are hateful and catty. Every time I feel like I can trust another female and tell them something personal, they think it's their personal duty to run and tell every single person they know. I would love nothing more than to find someone who I really connect with, who I can hang out with, who I can relate to, and who I can trust with my whole heart. It seems like that is never going to come :o( I love my husband an girl so much, but it would be so nice to have other friends in my life/our lives. We sat at home on New Years because we have no friends down here. It really stinks!!


Becky said...

Awwwww, girl, if we lived closer, I would so be your hang out friend. You are absolutely right about women - hateful and back stabbing! (or I guess I should say most women ~ wouldn't want to include myself in that description). I had a group of best friends all through high school, and hardly any of us talk anymore because of all the back stabbing.
Anyway, I hope you find a good friend there. And just come on down to SC if you wanna hang out :)


Shelly said...

forming close and lasting relationships has always been really difficult for me--i have a knack for choosing the wrong friends! and like you, either i or my close friends have ended up moving away--so sad! it makes me happy for heaven when no one will be moving away anymore!